in love...

first love never dies? ha! maybe for some! but for me, it's one good hell of a lie! my first crush, it was in first grade haha (im an early bloomer LOL), i was sooo head over heels, well.. when we reach high school i learned that he was gay yaiks! i remember fallin in love for the first time, i am a living proof that love is blind. but then again love is not permanently blind, i woke up one day and i realize that it's not the life i wanted and he's not the guy i wanted to be with the rest of my life. tears flow and memories kept but we have to move on. after few months i go back to dating world, ebs, meeting new friends, acquaintances, i met this guy i never really like him but he is so persistent, maybe he realized he was just wasting his time, he gave up. well... after that i realized i already liked him... actually no regrets too, i just knew we're not meant for each

then a man came along, we already talked a lot before we met. when i saw him, i was kinda "i don't like him", i even remember acting like i was in a hurry just to cut the meeting short. he called me after that, we still talked, he got sense of humor although he is not the guy i dreamed of, i like talking to him. he asked me out, i say "hey, why not give it a try? tutal i kinda like to talk to him". eventually i learned to like him, we had few dates and i finally said yes, i think it was my pahabol gift since i said i love him too around 10pm on christmas day. it was 5 years ago. and we are still together, very much in love and we're hoping that someday we will finally blessed as one. anyway, there are ups and downs, a lot of fights, broke ups and make ups. we are not getting any younger and as we grew old we realize being together is the only thing that matters, loving and respecting one another will bring us to where we wanted to be. i am really enjoying my life especially sharing it with the one i truly love. now, what can i say? im still in love after all these years.